stirring. . .

I have a drive tomorrow-
3 hours to visit with a birth mom and connect with some sweet ladies at a pregnancy center.

and 3 hours back to the Ham. (yes. . . that's 6 hours in the car. which equals a venti something from Starbucks in the morning, some Sonic happy hour on the way home, and lots of jams in the car. . . plus some pod casts)

I'm so excited. . . LOVE the birth mom I am working with and that we have some time to really build a relationship before baby is born . . .

(I just wish I was already sleeping. . . seeing as I'll get a solid 7 hours if I fall asleep right NOW. . . )

but there's so much stirring:

I got a new call today- a sweet 16 year old . . . it's coming to fruition. This desire in my heart started 8 years ago. . . to work with teen moms- or to work in adoption. This is my second 'client' who is a " two in one"" for me. . . THESE PLACES these women are in. . . it takes my breath away.

and

I had my 2nd "hang up" today. .

which is hard for me. not because I feel like I fail or say something wrong.

but because I hear in their voice. . I hear the fear. I hear the hesitation. I hear the hurt and the unknowing and the courage it takes to call. . . and I LONG to reach OUT- even if just through the phone, to wrap my arms around them, hold them, and let them feel SAFE. LOVED. SURROUNDED. & SUPPORTED... to let them tell their story, that starts long before pregnancy and will continue to develop after. . .

I want them to know GOD- the KINGDOM of God- His WHOLENESS and HEALING and love for them. I want them to know they are WORTHY. . .

I want them to know how much they are LOVED. . . and how PRECIOUS the life is inside of them.

that they CAN. CHOOSE. LIFE

just like we can choose life. and not just merely live or struggle through or trudge along. . . but to live an ABUNDANT, FULL life-

*deep breath* I know He's in this. He's in all of this. He is Sovereign. Beginning to the end.

Col 1:18-20 *He was supreme in the beginning and—leading the resurrection parade—he is supreme in the end. From beginning to end he's there, towering far above everything, everyone. So spacious is he, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe—people and things, animals and atoms—get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death, his blood that poured down from the cross.

The Message (MSG)

He is SO intricate. . . weave it together, Lord. . . this beautiful tapestry is YOURS and Yours alone. . .