thoughts.

I am applying to be a sub in the Hutch School District
and at the Hutch High daycare.

God reminded me of this summer- of a moment He helped me dust off some shelves in my heart that contained a book of dreams I had buried...

I remembered my heart a little more. I forgot the things that have jaded it- other people's opinions, my fears, finances. and I remembered what it felt like to just want to love people

then He brought the "give me Your eyes" song into my heart. and I got excited. I got excited to be a sub and love kids of all ages where they are at- poverty or not. I got excited to work away from what I've always known

2 things made me think of China today. 1. this Bible verse: (Matthew 25:)
34Then the king will say to those at his right hand, “Come, you that are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world; 35for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me, I was in prison and you visited me.”

*** I've helped feed the hungry. I've given drinks to the thirsty. I've welcomed strangers. I've given my clothes to people who need them more than me. The moment I heard "I was sick..." I thought of http://www.lovewithoutboundaries.com/ and the possiblity that Wendy shared with me...

hmm. instance #2 was when I lightly mentioned it to the babysitting fam and the husband got so excited and was very encouraging about the prospect. "We'll even help you with your ticket if that is what it takes"

have I Mentioned how BLESSED I am?

I did have a moment of frustration today- I'm flying. I'm being me. I'm leaving. but I still have someone say... "so and so actually KNOWS the manager of the Starbucks in Hutch. I told her to tell him that you'd be a good worker and to give you the job."

NO- It's not like that this time. We're not going to take things into our own hands. We're going to let Michelle be MICHELLE in Hutch. Not this person's friend or this person's daughter or this person's babysitter.

It's a new beginning. Not that the past doesn't matter or it isn't part of who I am. But I am constantly pulled two ways- the people who refuse to believe I Have a life outside of Hays and the people who refuse to let me stay here any longer.

I can't even describe how much joy I feel in my heart right now though. Honestly- I'm in such a good place... and it's only getting better.